OK... this is for... u know who. You gotta stop this... u gotta get a life. It's really your choice... but don't blame me when it all comes crashing down around you!!!! You have been warned. Do not do this! Do not continue this thing you call your life, not to say kill yourself or anything crazy... but change it! You and only you have the power... but what you do with it is your choice. Hope things turn out ok..... because to be completely honest with you... I just don't care about it.... and don't want to hear about it anymore. Sorry to be a bitch, but sometimes, being a high riding bitch is all a girl has to hold on. Hope you find the motivation you need, before it's too late.